first post froom on the move

lets play a game of getting it right – as if we are picking out a coffee from these girls – instead of mildly (decaff) degrading them – i’d take girl one’s body, then girl two’s smile and skintone – colour girl one’s hair style into girl three’s colour and you have the perfect top of the head – but girl one still is a firm favorite for lips and nose – eye colour is girl three again – those deep dark eyes that remind me of something timid and shaking – add being timid and shaking into the equasion and you have a night i’d like to make pocket-sized and carry with me. with one more thing added… the personality and soul of a girl i have yet to have the pleasure of being introduced to.

another comment

politics? really? where?

closed.

i write here now  ->  God Jr.

simply because i want to.

i might write here as well, but it depends what i’m writing.

funny, no?

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This is how I get found….

I love these search terms, I’ve also got the map of visitors from Google analytics to help track where they are from.

I love that people search for me specifically. I wouldn’t mind talking to some of these people sometime. Just to ask them why I matter so much. Right now, I don’t feel like I matter very much at all. I’m not moping, just being realistic.

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Search Terms for All Time

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silly photos.

I’m messing with effects and want to showcase them online to decide which is the best web format for images.
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youthful

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when I was a kid, I never smoked out of a window. not a real smoke anyway, certainly not a joint. oh how juvenile I feel. such a rebel.

a bottle of whiskey and a smoke. some Jimmy Reed on the computer.

I have therapy tomorrow, hence the act of youthful rebellion.

I have to submit my list of ‘states’ – how I feel, inexplicably, from time-to-time.

right now I feel nothing. so I want to see if I can my head around it. I was asked to write them down last week, but you know me and deadlines. heck! you know me and life!

I need to work out where to go from here. otherwise I’m going to end up sad and lonely. I need to work out how to feel happy and satisfied with life.

I have absolutely no clue.

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a day in the life…

Ok, so the first photo is out of order – I can’t fix that; but the rest of them are are in order of the day I’ve had. — 8.6.10

The out of order shot is from my walk home to the station. I walk past this building a lot and now they are tearing it down.

The first ordered shot is from my bed looking up at the blinds.

The next where I get washed up.

The following is my shop’s logo, I was late this morning due to the lack of trains (cancellations). Not that it was that big a deal.

Next comes lunch, can’t beat a good book and 49p worth of juice.

Still in the staff room, here’s a co-worker’s cup of tea.

The outside of my shop, the other view as I am released from that prison.

Lift down, then the art at the platform of James Street.

Still can’t get a seat, so a picture of legs.

And the last two are shots from my road.

Not a great lot of interest, but I had fun.

Love and Light People!

xxx

Lenthem – Men and Cartoon

Just finished this wonderful collection of short stories – each one a blissful journey into the cobweb of human emotion. Part fantasy, part stark reality it is littered with the small irrelivancies of life and how they inform the alter-egos we create for ourselves. We’re all the heroes and villains of our lives and this idea is compounded within this collection. A great, light summer read for anyone who has felt outcast from the ‘seemingly simple masses’.

At least a 4/5 for me. Favorite story… ‘The Spray’

borderline or bipolar

still alive, just spending a lot of my time over in Liverpool rather than in my home. So I can’t update much.

Just started Therapy. So I have an hour every week to chat to a real doctor. Got 16 weeks and then I’m cured. (I joke)

And then after 16 weeks she’ll have an idea what is wrong (although perhaps before then)

I really love the fact I have someone to talk to, other than this blog. It is a relief to be totally open with someone who NEEDS to listen. I always feel bad talking to friends because I feel like I put things on them. So that’s why it is good to talk honestly to someone totally separate from my life. After the hour is up, i can walk away and not have to think about it.

Sort of like an hour of catharsis.

Anyway, it is helping. Borderline or Bipolar, I’ll figure this out and learn how to get better and stop fucking up my life by making my crazy decisions.