because i made a promise to blog, but my mind is a little scattered, this blog will be a blog based on random, seemingly separate, thoughts. a mind sneeze.
i have re-connected with a friend who i never really knew when we were in the same physical location, but thanks to the power of the internet we are now good friends.
i can’t believe that only one month (or longer) (or shorter) ago I was singing britney spears in a packed pub. it wasn’t even karaoke.
i will feel sad when i have to take my art down from the walls in my bedroom. i am no longer moving out, but i think i still need to take them down to motivate me to leave.
i want to make a home movie tomorrow.
i need to remember to finish doing the photograph for the aforementioned friend.
there are riots in liverpool and i really don’t care. i mean, i care that it is all pointless, but a lot of what we do is pointless. most of it is just walking around. i do that all the time; I, therefore, identify. or perhaps I really don’t care at all. I’m not sure and I don’t want to think about riots.
i would like to try my luck at moving away for a little while this year. perhaps i will move to a different country. then i can come back and start university somewhere.
i used to cry at night, when i was a kid – because i was convinced that i would never find someone just like me.
the dogs that i live with are howling. we are their pack, they are trying to locate us. we know where we are. they would know if they stopped howling and thought about it.
i regret not being able to be friends with The Grin, she was funny. i miss her story-telling voice. i don’t even think she knows that she does that.
i might just lock myself away from the world in a little room somewhere in silent contemplation.
my sense of ‘fair’ came from a kids tv show where the boys get £10 (between the two of them) for saving a man’s life. ever since i’ve found it hard to believe fairness exists in the world. if even fiction can’t be fair, who will believe the world could be better?
i am really tired.
i talked honestly with someone about The Smile Reverser tonight. i actually talked more openly than i do in this.
my home movie idea is me drinking something and then reversing the film. i hope it looks as cliché and pretentious as possible.
i am going to sleep.
